Update on Stone

As you probably know, I had a super bright idea for changing the book right before the pre-order was due to be uploaded, and I’m still really really glad I decided to make the changes. When I put up the ARC signup, I also added so many warnings that I felt like I was warning people off. And it was funny, kind of … but the truth was, the story wasn’t what I wanted and it was too depressing and I didn’t love it. But I want to love it; Stone’s book has been so long coming, it deserves me to love it. So I’m making those changes. But as usual, I’m just terrible at judging how much time something takes me.

But it really shouldn’t have been this long, and here’s where I have to be a little more vague. And if this was about me personally, I’d probably be more willing to share details about what has been the delay on my end and why I’ve been taking so long to get this out to you.

I really can’t, though. I’ll just leave it at — the person who I love the most in the world is going through a very difficult time, and that has derailed me more than I expected. And the radio silence simply has been because I don’t know WHEN I’ll have it up, because everything has been hectic and emotional and I’m kind of a wreck in the meantime. And I hate giving a date and being wrong all the time. Because that’s what happens to me all the time. I give a date, then something happens, and I feel terrible and anxious and then everything just seems worse.

It just ended up being a perfect storm of “good idea turns into a good idea at the really, really wrong time.”

Every second that I can, I’m working. I’m frustrated and disappointed in myself that I didn’t get the book out to you, but not sorry that it’ll be a much better book than it would be otherwise. I’m sorry that about the delay but can’t be sorry that I’m taking this time to help this person I love.

I’m also offline mostly, because every free second I’m working — I’m not trying to ignore messages or comments, I’m just worried that all the time I spend answering them (and probably giving wrong dates/times) is time that I’m not finishing this. There’s not much left and so I hope it is very, very soon. And god knows, I’ll be celebrating here the second I hit the end and upload it.

So I will update again as soon as I can.